The Tightrope of Doing and Non-doing

This past week I have spent time contemplating what it is to simply be.  Is it enough? Shouldn’t I be doing something to progress, write new content for classes, finish a project or get ahead of the endless studio business, laundry?  The busy-ness of life caught up with me in such a way that I was reminded of a level of anxiety and panic attacks I used to experience years ago.  The difference this time was some experience and the wisdom to know, in the moment, that it will pass.  

What did I do?  Well the simple answer was nothing.  I sat with it, looked at it, breathed with it and became curious. No, it was NOT comfortable to do any of those things. AND here I am today post panic, just writing and breathing.  I am okay, even better than okay.  I feel confident that should another episode pop up, I can handle it.

Matt Haig has this to say in his book “The Comfort Book”

“ Your worth is you.  Your worth is your presence.  Your worth is right there,  Your worth isn’t something you earn.  Your worth isn’t something you buy.  Your worth isn’t something you gain through status or popularity or stomach crunches or having a really chic kitchen.  Your worth is your existence.  You were born with worth, as all babies are, and that worth doesn’t disappear simply because you have grown a little older. You are a human, being.”

I learned something in the middle of that chaos.  And that lesson was stillness. I made a decision, in the moment, to be still to resist the temptation to be pulled into the swirling winds that generally take me off center. In that stillness, I found home.  I found myself and that is ENOUGH. I AM ENOUGH.

Join me for class, where I hope to cultivate some stillness. I promise to remind you as I remind myself that we are enough.  “We’re all just walking each other home. - Ram Das.

In gratitude,

Kim